Andre Li

Our first date was
one month later, long
after we had met and
since then I had
journeyed into depths and
I didn’t know for sure,
that I would even
recognize you. But

Then you appeared and
I knew you instantly –
You were the handsome man
Glowing and bright
crossing my favorite street.
And I stepped close and
hugged you, unafraid. We
walked together

Across the threshold of
my favorite Japanese place and
sat, not across but side-by-side
and shared our food, me
venturing beyond my comfort zone
emboldened now, with you beside me,
laughing at your tales
of campaigns long fought and won

And I didn’t want it
to end, that night. I
loved taking your arm and
talking so easily for hours and
your gentle kiss good night
without any pressure just
kindness and joy and ease.
And I thought, if he respects me,

If he gives me space but
still comes back to me, weeks
hence, then, maybe. Maybe.
And when you did, when
you loved my home and
you loved my children and
you loved me, then I knew
that you were mine.

My beshert had finally found me.
My Andre, Andre Leigh.

Mine

It’s a Sign, I said, and
you laughed a bit,
just slightly
uncomfortable with
how I see
every piece of you,
of your name,
as my Sign, but
that’s just my way.
I see the Signs.
And in your name, given
to you forty years ago,
when I wasn’t
even here yet
born into this life,
you were marked,
with ashes
between your eyes,
with the long thread
binding us together,
with the Voice
proclaiming we will be
meant to be.
Before I was born,
I was meant for you,
and you were marked
as mine.

Faith

I have faith in your love. You will always love me.
I have faith in your strength to withstand what may come.
I have faith in the joy that we bring, blessed be.
I have faith in your laughter, so full and wholesome.

I have faith that the demons will cower in fear
When seeing the brightness our true love creates.
I have faith that those who would throw their spears
Will find that our love is too pure to abate.

I have faith we will face every challenge life brings
Both evil and good, as lovers, as friends.
I have faith that we will grow together, find wings
To lift up our spirits, to soar without end.

I have faith that our faith will just grow over time.
I will always be yours, and my knight will be mine.

Love in Perspective

I could hear the laugh in your voice
the lilting, joyful sound of you
realizing how lucky you are
how lucky we are
that we even have an us
and then, to be apart,
but not really, still able
to talk every day and
love every minute and
know that we will be together
soon, and safe.
It was good to hear
that ease in your voice again
as we laugh together
in our good fortune.
So many aren’t as lucky.

Mouths of Babes

He’s a crumb, and
you’re a sandwich,
she said, devilish
glint in her eye.
Don’t worry about him.
I’m cheese, and
she’s baloney and
you’re a sandwich.
He’s just a crumb.
I laughed and asked
what about yesterday?
When you said, don’t worry
that it was meant to be,
that he’s the one?
Mischievous, like you said,
she laughed too
and said, well,
I could be wrong.

Rain

I hope it rains
when I find him.
When my true one
comes to me and
promises me
his life
his soul
his energy
asks me
to join him
on his quest and
pledges his fealty
to mine,
I hope the rain
washes down then
so I can hear him
laugh in surprise
uplifting, exuberant
loving
the irony of life
when he comes
home to me.