I was triumphant then, flying
carried aloft newfound freedom.
I was abundant then, flowing
ripeness gushing open heart.
I was fearless then, unknowing
ignorant of pain, doubt.
I was bold and brash then, leaping
into brave new opportunities.
I am old and hurting now, limping
pains shooting in aching joints.
I am morose and moody now, knowing
you didn’t want me, not even at my peak.
I am fierce and fed up now, unwilling
to forget or stay silent or shrink.
And I will be me again, returning
to what was me before finding you.
A phoenix reborn.
A goddess healed.